Changing

Last night, after my world class strop, turned out to be bloody brilliant. The strop, due to Sam and I's lack of communication, was because my mum found out i lied and said the famous "gonna have to rebuild the trust now gab". How i hate that line. Mainly because rebuilding will take about another 5 years and i feel as though i only just gained it.

Anyhoo we ended up arriving to the party unfashionably late... at literally 10 o'clock and the party finished at half 12. My bad really. But it made us jump straight into it, maybe slightly inappropriately as we couldn't keep our hands off each-other but for some reason i loved it. I felt like me and Sam could finally just be with each-other and not have to care what any one else thought. That may be due to the fact none of my girls were there and i hate to admit this because its not down to them, more my misconstrued ideas on what they'll think... Nonetheless it was fun and although the walk home from the party to my house was so long after peeing down an ally and stripping off for the freedom, it turned out to be a great  night.

Today has been boring and made me realise how tomorrow I'm changing my diet and my attitude because it seems necessary and i want too. I just really hope i stick with it.

Good luck me

Mayella xx